The hardest thing to do sometimes is exposing what you know
to others. What would they do with it? Would they abuse it or take it and
become better than you? Isn’t it yours for keepsakes? I mean, common you worked
so hard to get to where you are just for someone else to step in and count
their blessings. After you have run through all the outcomes of what could
happen, you then decide, perhaps I’ll share a little, not all but just enough,
besides I have to keep something for myself, it’s fair isn’t it?
Say the first
person you give that little to treats it well, makes the most of it. First you
rejoice, then wonder, did I do the right thing? Still though what would they
have done if I had shown them all. Perhaps I would have been ripping greater
rewards…er, before you get ahead of yourself let’s consider the alternative.
Say the first person you give that little to abuses it, dismisses the fragments
of your hard work. Again you wonder, maybe I was right to give just a little,
the evidence is in the outcome, you can’t argue with that. There is a flip side
to this argument though. What if you had given more, how can you tell that they
won’t do more with it, make the most of your hard earned labor.
Finally you are
at crossroads, you’ll get here eventually whether you like it or not because
this place is unavoidable. Whilst you are scratching your head and planting
imprints in your carpet you finally come face to face with your nemesis, the
dreaded mirror. In this you can’t hide from yourself. It’s really down to what
you can live with. I would go with my gut feeling when the time comes, I would
give if I feel like giving and I won’t if I don’t feel like it. I mean that’s
fair isn’t it? There I’ve made a decision so leave me alone!
Things work out
for a while as they always do until the time comes and your gut gets it wrong
and this time your dustbin becomes the subject of your frustrations. Oh what
the hell! Just another day, right? Wrong! Again and again and again,
this gut of yours is something else. Just why can’t you get it right, at least
just once?
Ah! If you have
reached this place don’t sweat it we all do and would continue to in our lives.
The fact remains that what we receive we do by grace and what we give we do so
also by grace. Getting past the crossroads in our lives is by grace and this is
one thing that is free for all…
